Come baby come!

Just had dinner bersama suami terchenta hasil air tangan I of course. Hiks. Hanya beberapa jam saja lagi Tahun 2010 akan datang. Suami awal2 lagi dah cakap celebrate di rumah saja depan TV tengok team Arsenal yang beliau puja lawan dengan team lembik jadi sudah pasti akan menang kan. Isk. Kejap lagi mungkin akan bawa I keluar jalan2 untuk makan favourite ice cream. Adoilaa. Sejak kawen nie, beliau memang liat mau keluar rumah. Lain dengan I yang memang kaki jalan haha. Johor tak ada istilah cuti umum untuk New year. Tapi tempat kerja suami mmg suka bersosial haha jadi beliau cuti esok I kena pergi meeting Jentera UPSR wtf wtf. Sabar jelah. Bila tahun baru nak masuk, I pun gediklah buat new year resolution ewahh.

Sudah lama bercita2 mahu mendapatkan buku cerita dari author yang awesome ini. I didn't read many books this year. Only P/S: I Love You and Thank You for the Memories. And both were amazingly great. Read and you'll know how wonderful Ahern is. I hope I can read more books in 2010. Not those Academic journals and articles. Ngeh. Those are not included of course. I mean reading for leisure. Siapa mahu hadiahkan I buku ini? I cari di MPH sini tak jumpa.

Bila status dah bertukar, pekerjaan pun dah tukar jadi tukang masak. Nyehehe. Sebelum nie I memang tak suka masak. Eh bukan, cuma tak pandai jadi the urge to cook memang harapan lah. Tapi bila kawen, automatically sedar diri yang kalau nak mengorat suami perlu mula dari perut beliau. Betulkah? Lepas kawen, I cuba masak dinner setiap malam. Suami suka lauk yang simple tapi simple pun I terkedek2 masak. Call org sana sini. Google macam2. Mujur dia tak banyak complaint. I hope 2010 nanti I akan jadi tukang masak yang hebat. Cakap saja apa mau makan, siaappppp! Haha.

Dari sekolah rendah, cita2 I hanya satu. Mau jadi macam makcik I yang sekarang seorang Prof dan berjaya mendidik anak2 jadi brilliant! Masih ingat betapa beliau terkejar2 mengurus anak2 sambil belajar dan kerja, urus suami yang asyik travel abroad. I teringin amat jadi macam beliau sampai lah I sendiri sambung belajar baru I tau peritnya hidup. I'm exaggerating already ;p Tapi sungguh, kerja sambil belajar sambil urus rumah tangga memang memenatkan. Ni belum ada baby. Tapi I percaya semua tu akan terbayar satu hari nanti. I pun tak pasti bila I akan habis masters degree nie. Terkedek2 nak habiskan setiap semester. Tapi bila result memberangsangkan I jadi semangat. Alhamdulillah, moga Tuhan permudahkan semuanya. Amin =)

Harapan yang satu ini memang sukar betul nak realisasikan OMG my BM is bloody good! Haha. Setiap kali berazam, ada saja makanan2 yang membuat saya kecur air liur. Heee. Hubby tak habis2 goda dengan makanan2 yang lazat. Jadi macam mana? Esok dah 2010. Perlu lebih kuat tahan nafsu dan makan makanan *ehem* berkhasiat sahaja *ehem*.

Dan yang paling ultimate sudah pasti mau satu family yang happy! I mahu jadi isteri mithali dan ibu pada anak2 yang gorjes dan hebat. Amin. I mahu buat family happy. Biar tak kaya raya pakai Ferrari tak ada rumah 3 tingkat asal cukup makan pakai, pelajaran dan yang paling penting adab dan akhlak mereka perlu bagus. Mak bapak I selalu pesan, duit banyak tak penting tapi make sure pelajaran anak2 terjaga jadi mereka boleh belajar cari duit sendiri dan belajar untuk hidup senang sendiri. Moga2 suami I juga boleh jadi Ayah terbaik untuk anak2 dan suami mithali untuk I. Amin.

Selamat Tahun Baru people! I doakan yang baik2 saja untuk kamu semua. =D

Falling Out.

I had been in and out of a few relationships before I settled down. Three to be exact excluded my hubby. And I used to love those guys, I mean, boys when I dated them. I started this so called puppy love when I was 15. Haha, gatal I know. Each relationship has its own stories you know. Well, I love to have a bit of dramas just to feel how thrilling it would be. I wallowed in the deep shit pits a few times, cried my heart out, got myself bloody fat due to endless glutony-gobbling activity, wasted some moolah for shopping with my girlfriends and hung out with great bunches of new and old friends - what I did when the relationship ended. Some may say it's pathetic. But hey, everyone has their own way to heal and get their brain well-fixed again you see. No doubt, each relationship left a few thick scars in my heart even if I was the one who walked out of the relationship. Imagine you've been together for a few years or months like 'Hey, he's the one' and later you find that the love has faded away and he's no longer the one you want. And you both become strangers to each other. Ouch. That hurts. But yeah, that's the reality.

The first one was 3 years older. So, basically he witnessed how I grew up my teenage years. We ended the relationship after 3 or 4 years? Things were not on our side. And I guess he doesn't have balls to come up and be honest. So, why bother having that kind of man right? I'm mean. But he's so much more than that. Things were quite complicated and I choose not to walk down the memory lane anymore haha. He's married I suppose. I have no idea where he is now and I hope he's blessed by God with wife and beautiful kids. Amin.

The second one was 2 years older. We quarreled like monkeys and sometimes felt like strangling each other but we were together for 3 years! Hah! He's like a good friend you can share everything with and he's mysterious everyone said so. He's quiet. He plays guitar. And he's bloody brilliant in drawing. But I don't need those qualities to make him my life partner. Hehe. He's a nice guy, really. Many said we looked alike when we were in college. He's like the man version of me. Haha. So he's gorgeous for sure hahahahha. But ever heard of falling out of love? I had that. Perhaps both of us felt the same. So I decided to call it off through phone call. Bukan kejam but I was in Brisbane and he was in Sydney. It was painful still coz I was all alone without my family and bestfriends around. But later on I learnt that I could survive strongly and independently and become a better individual.

The third one was a few months older haha. Well, it was just a short one. A few months. I wouldn't call it a serious relationship. It was more to rebound. You know, you broke up and got someone new simply just to occupy your time. Mungkinlah. But the scar I had for this short relationship was the worst. I have no idea why it took me quite sometime to get over it. But Alhamdulillah, God knows well.

And and and...the last one is my pujaan hati =) The one I decided to marry and to spend my life with. He's my bestfriend. I talk to him about almost everything. And he never fails to listen attentively. He's a man. A great one. He has a big heart and he loves me like nobody's business haha. He, who would go all the way to feed my crazy tummy each time I crave like a pregnant woman. He, who always hugs me tight to sleep and kisses me on my forehead when he comes home from work. He, who keeps my ugly passport photo in his wallet and shows off to his colleagues erghhh ;p And he, who has been with me through my ups and downs, witnessing how hard I work to get over my rollercoaster life and still chooses to be with me. Thank you sayang. Let's grow old and get fat together ok? I love you.

Hey Mr. Wrongs.

I don't know why. But everything went wrong today. Ergh. I had to wake up early to attend teachers' meeting at school. I was dreading it and I felt like strangling hubby who went back to bed after Subuh prayer since he enters office at 8.30a.m. every day. Haha. Mean, I know but why meetings for 5 days in a row? That sucks, totally. It ended at 1.30p.m. and I quickly rushed home to do laundry and get ready for CALL class. I was bloody hungry but decided not to take anything since many of my collagues went, 'Aaaaaaaa, muka dah bulattttt!' wtf wtf. I hate being in a rush coz I would suffer from wardrobe malfunctions. I always go mental choosing clothes to wear. Dah lambat I masih sempat mix match baju lagi. Tsk.

The traffic bongok gila. It was 3.15 and the traffic went real slow. Ada pulak kereta nak rempit tengah2 jammed memang buat I panas hati. Sampai dekat tol, smart tag didn't function! Yucks, big time. Buat malu kena reverse kereta dan buat semua kereta lane smart tag undur juga haha. But tiba2, it functioned pula. Hish. I bet drivers yang lain pasti bengang. My hair was all over. Oh, I had a new hair cut last week. It was hubby's suggestion. And it OMG looks weird and messy. But he loves it I pun taktau kenapa. My HP was barred thanks to Celcom. It breaks my heart to receive so many texts from my loved ones and not able to reply them. Benciiiiiiii. Hubby dah janji esok dia bayarkan yayy!

Well, tomorrow ada meeting lagi. I'm the Head Panel of English Panitia jadi banyak docs I kena prepare but I masih boleh buang masa atas katil online while hubby's watching football. Haih. I wanna go cinema and catch good movies with hubby and have a great dinner together tomorrow night! It's like a reward after cooking him dinner and making him breakfast for so many days already =D

It's coming to the year end! I'm excited and looking forward to the new year for sure. Banyak plan betul I'm sure hubby gets all mashed up with my super ambitious plans hoho. Tapi itulah, orang cakap azam tahun baru kan. Hangat2 tahi ayam pun, tak salah berangan ;p

HP I yang lama dah buruk. Kalau dapat yang ini pasti nikmat sekali bukan? ;p Moga2 rezeki kami murah tahun depan, Aminnn.

I harap dapat sampai ke sini. Eye-catching betul. Dah lama teringin. Tapi bila chenta hati saya dapat cuti and bawa saya pergi pun taktau.

p/s: I rasa macam banyak entry yang outdated. Sabar sabar ;)

Reception 1.

Please note that it's gonna be a pretty long entry. Just click off the button X if you have tons of work to do ;D

I received a few raw photos from Husaini yesterday after having a long chat with him and forced him to send some for me haha. The reception on my side was held a day after the solemnization, December 5th. It's an advantage to have a reception a day after so you don't go mental and sweating changing dresses and make-ups. I woke up early and had my shower. I got to have my breakfast. And did final cleaning at the two halls in my house. While waiting for the make-up artist to arrive, Poppy and I got everything in place. Thanks Pop, I owe you big time. My make-up artist, Erin came at 10.00a.m. and quickly started painting my face. Oh, for the solemnization, I didn't wear any fake eye lashes. I tried 4 eye lashes given by Ugie, the make-up artist but all made my eyes look horrifying haha I'm exaggerating but tak cantik langsung so Ugie decided not to put on any.So I remembered having this pair of fake eye lashes from MAC given by my colleague who collects eye lashes (yes and she wears it to school!) and mistakenly bought the wrong one for her eyes. She said I could wear it for my reception so I gave it to Erin. And surprisingly, it looked awesome on my eyes! Ahahahah vain, I know. But my eyes looked bigger and and shinier. =D My Lynda and Tash arrived 15 mins after the make-up session started and they quickly rushed to another room with my Poppy to make my hand-bouquet. Thanks girls I love yous.

And to all the bride-to-be-s, please bear in mind that you'll be in a pretty tight dress the whole day so be prepared coz I wasn't. Ergh I didn't expect corset is THAT freaking tight though everyone kept telling me I looked pretty. Yeah, no pain no gain. Haha. Corset shapens your body but some of you may feel like fainting during the first few minutes wearing it. I did feel that way and hubby was worried and kept telling me to breath sffdtrhdhwtf haha.But I got more comfy after about half an hour. The groom's side arrive at 1.00p.m. and it was just 5 mins after I got all dolled up! I was nervous. And I was surprised to see the Kompang Team with their funny costumes dengan bulu2 ayam dekat songkok ewahh mcm nak menari zapin dah (hubby got the Kompang Team at the very last minute sebab we totally forgot about having Kompang - thanks to hubby and his friend).

It was so good to see familiar faces you love coming to your big day. I was surprised to see those I didn't expect to come and they made it. Some came all the way from Terengganu and Kelantan. Some all the way from Johor. Omg. I was so thrilled. These people deserve a special entry for sure :) And thanks for the presents our little home is almost complete with vaccum cleaner, microwave oven, water dispenser, steamer, pots and pans and we didn't even have to spend a single penny for cutleries! Hehe. Alhamdulillah everything went well and the weather was so nice. Thank You Allah =) Amin.

And I'll let you guys feast your eyes on the gorgeous piccas!

Outdoor session at the beautiful mosque, Masjid Al-Bukhary.

My dais yang belum diletak kerusi sebab gabai sangat haha. I despise kain pink tu. It was supposed to be white. Tapi Mom asked them to change to pink and the only pink they had was THAT pink. Tapi I pasrah juga.

**These two are from my Barbie's lens.

And these are from the photographer;

Muka I hangin sebab earrings tu susah nak pakai and sakit pulak tu. Hoh.

All dolled up and waiting for my Man =)


Ok sayang, tau la panas pun tak perlu buat muka snobbish macam gitu kan? ;p

My beloved cousin was reciting the doa. Thank you Iwan.

With the pengapits. I dah mula rasa nak pengsan masa nie sumpah ketat gila baju.

I tak ingat senyum I masa nie ikhlas ke tak sebab baju ketat hahah.

Hubby with his new soldier, Adam Hakim

Masa nie I dah berpeluh2 nak pengsan minta air hubby sebok dengan baju dia sheeshh ;p

I ate like 3 sudu kot and dah tak boleh sumbat takut muntah.

Cake cutting. Sedap cake orange tu!

Scene dalam bilik. Tak banyak pose sebab I tak suka gila bed sheet dia yang outdated gila plus banyak scene kurang sopan directed by my Poppy and Tash and they both drove the photographer crazy hahaha!

I had fun that day. A great one. And thanks to those who made it to my big day. You guys are just awesome! :)


p/s: Nanti kalau rajin, ada duit lebih beli majalah Harmoni ok? Macam biasa, perempuan kesayangan saya kawen. Gambar perempuan kesayangan kamu juga ada dong! Ngeh ngeh.

p/s/s: My Barbie Lynda sekarang tengah ligat jual tudung. Semua cantek2. Kalau suka dan berkenan (ada a few gambar dia pakai tudung yang dia jual), bagitau I ok? Nanti I cakap dengan dia. Nak lagi senang, find her in her blog. Tell her that you're my fan, sure dia suka hahahah!

I want nobody.

Currently listening to : Separuh Jiwaku Pergi by Anang (A beautiful song, it is)
Currently enjoying : Drinking a huge mug of coffee while going online

I woke up late today. I went back to sleep after Bitbit's off to work. I wonder how he could look so fresh and excited to go to work when we slept late last night. He watched football on his fav channel, ESPN and I was indulging myself with 'burger rempit' he bought for me while searching and googling on the net randomly. We are still adapting to the married life. Up until today, it still feels strange to sleep and wake up next to him. And up until today, I still think how on earth we could marry each other. Haha. Don't get me wrong. I love my man. I've made my choice - firmly and happily. But at times, it hits my train-wrecked brain how could I possibly be married when I still have all the bad attitudes? Erghh. You know those attitudes that make you feel noone deserves you at all? I can't cook. I sleep like a log. I suck at folding laundries. I have mood swings. And I swear noone wants to be near me whenever I have my PMS. The only thing I think (please read; my hormones think) I'm good at is cleaning up. Sigh. Everyday, when hubby's at work, I'll waste my time cleaning up the house even the kitchen is all shiny already haha. I keep wiping the stove and the cabinet each time I pass by kitchen wtf right right but I have nothing better to do haha. I'm thankful that Bitbit is being so much of help. And he never fails to tell me how delicious I cook, haha and it's because he's forced to say so ;) Oh, I've been cooking dinner everyday now. Google hepls you see. And also, Nigella's shows ya, sila cakap I ambitious. Well, the meals don't taste that good. But I'm learning and improving so far, hehe. I have classes at UTM on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday from 4-7pm. Jadi bila pulang di rumah terus bersilat di dapur sebab suami selalu pulang dengan muka lapar dan kebulur nyeheheheh. It's tiring at times but I'm enjoying it. Rasa lega betul bila tengok muka dia kekenyangan =)


** Nanti bila I dah mula rasa yakin dengan program masak2 I, I'll take some pics and post in the blog ok? ;D


Watch this clip. You'll want to dance like them, really.

A mini gath.

Minggu lepas before I pulang ke JB I sempat attend wedding coursemates I. The brides are both my friends. Jadi I was feeling excited nak jumpa kawan2 yang dah lama tak jumpa. Saiful, the groom classmate masa A-Level. Azrin was living next door masa di hostel dulu. But we didn't fly to the same place, Saiful went to Sydney, Azrin went to Wellington and I went to Brisbane. The brides picked 12.12.09 for their big day, just a week after mine! Rasa teruja betul sebab Azrin buat sendiri pelamin and bilik pengantin dia. Awesome bukan? Kalau bagi I sumpah hancur haha.

I planned to go with my bestie Tash (we went to the same uni) and of course I dragged hubby along though he was hell tired coz he just reached Alor Setar that morning, driving all the way from JB poor him. Tapi dia pun semangat nak makan nasi kenduri (oh, we are big fans of nasi kenduri!). And when we arrived Azrin's place, we went all crazy seeing a bunch of old friends from uni! =D The food was deliciously yummy ada nasi beriani, tiger prawns masak merah, ayam masak merah, daging masak hitam and acar buah (my fav!). Sumpah sedap!!!!!!!

Enjoy the pics ok?

I'll start with the cake. Gorgeous kan? And it's yummy too! Seriously!

Azrin siap potong 1 big slice for me tengok kat tangan pun masih ada sempat melantak cake yang super yummayyy tu! Thanks Azrin!


With the pengantin baru. Pelamin tu dia buat sendiri. Berbakat juga kawan I kan? ;p

Pengantin baru jugeeeeeeee =)

Tengok, kami buat onar dalam gambar Azrin haha!

Lagiiii...

dan lagiiii! Heee!

p/s: Sila abaikan double-chin saya, badan yang semakin mengembang. Sekian.

I tak sabar nak cerita pasal reception. Tapi belum datang mood lagi. Excited ja lebih! Sabar ok? Aiseh. I tau mesti ada yang tak sabar haha. ;p ;p

Tying the Knot.

Well, I haven't got the raw photos from the great photographer. But I've received tons of photos from family members and girlfriends. Thank you people you guys are super awesome! Since I'm all up to nothing at all and while waiting for laundry, I would love to share with you the story of our solemnization ececeh perasan semua orang nak baca.

The solemnization was after Asar and it was held at the nearest mosque at my place. I woke up early in the morning though I slept at 2a.m the night before, filling in the eggs for bunga pahar with my two great besties Lynda and Tash. I got ready to pick up my another bestie, Poppy at the airport. Some people at the airport amazingly stared at my hands and feet sebab inai macam orang nak menari tarian India ke apa meriah melampau haha. My baby sister was laughing with her boyfriend but I was too excited to see my bestie at the arrival gate! You know, it felt so good to see your loved ones just willingly came all the way to be by your side on your big day.

Time flew so fast that day I didn't even have time to sit and relax myself for a while. Buat kerja macam bibik juga sebab takmau susahkan orang lain and also I would want to see everything went well that day. Bitbit siap text banyak kali cakap dia nervous haha. And when Poppy asked about my solemnization dress, then I realized I totally forgot about the veil! Huwaaaaa rasa nak menangis sebab dalam banyak2 benda I tak teringat langsung pasal veil. I macam nak resort to wearing my reception veil tapi Poppy jerit kat I takkan nak pakai veil yang sama sumpah time tu rasa nak suruh orang tembak I. I called Lynda and she screamed lagi buat I rasa nak pengsan. Tapi dia cepat2 cakap jangan risau dia akan cari jalan haha. Gila sumpah gila I rasa nak teriak lari tak mau kawen. At 11.20 she reached my place with a long chiffon selendang. Phew. Selendang tu sebenarnya ada bulu2 kat bawah tapi sebab dah last minute I pasrah apa nak jadi jadilah. Haha.

While my girlfriends did my handbouquet, I baru pergi mandi and got ready untuk make up. Make up untuk nikah I, I didn't really quite like it sebab mata I nampak macam kucing pun ada. And dia pakai shading yang gelap jadi kulit I tiba2 sama gelap dengan Bitbit haha perasan putih tapi betul semua orang cakap macam tu. Pelamin nikah yang I nak semua putih dah jadi hitam putih sebab Mom fell in love tengok background pelamin yang black tu. Sigh. Tapi I diam ja sebab hari2 terakhir sebelum I jadi isteri orang I tak rasa nak argue or menjawab dengan parents I.

Bila dah sudah make up, rasa nervous I dah melampau2. Rasa nak lari pun ada. Sampai masjid, I dah xboleh pikir apa dah. Dalam hati cuma harap, Bitbit dapat buat dengan sekali lafaz hahaha! Ada orang cakap kelancaran semasa akad tu reflect kelancaran rumah tangga juga. Ada yang cakap jangan percaya tapi it has been glued in my head since forever jadi I phobia and rasa nervous gila bila dia nak lafaz akad. And alhamdulillah, dengan sekali lafaz I sah jadi isteri =) And time tu juga hilang semua rasa doubts yang ada. Hilang rasa letih fikir macam2 sebelum nie. And as usual, I memang tak boleh control air mata nangis macam dalam drama pulak bila peluk Ayah, Mami, siblings and my best girlfriends who have been with me through my ups and downs. Thank you thank you I'm so lucky to have them all =)

Sekarang mari tengok gambar2 yang tak seberapa dari kamera orang2 kesayangan I;

Mom's fav!

Sumpah nervous gila masa nie! ;p


Sekali lafaz =)


Mithali betul. Haha!


=)


Kami memang over!


The first kiss after akad. (Sila tengok mata I yang macam kucing gatal and muka macam kena cucuk botox! Sheeeesh)

With my greatest love of all.